My body is back in ‘real’ life but my head and heart are still on the trail. Never in a million years did I expect to have such a problem adjusting back. It never occurred to me that there would even be a problem! It’s been a week, and I am still having a hard time. I cannot explain the way I feel, but it’s a struggle every day. I get anxiety every time I’m in the city. I want more than anything to pick up my pack and walk away. But the money is gone, and it’s simply impossible for me to continue on the trail. It’s the saddest realization I’ve ever had to come to. I keep putting one foot in front of the other, try my best, and hope it’ll get easier. I wish I could get paid to hike. #teararoa #trail #backpacking #tramping #newzealand #trailsickness #wishfulthinking